Ephiphany of Reflection

I was at work at Big Brother the other day whereby a situation arose between two Housemates, which forced my eyes to singe and my mind to rattle!

One of the carnal couples in the 'House of Sin' was treated to a night of indulgence in the Treatment room. Inevitably, this lead to debauched antics of sloppy lip-action and bodily contortions! "Lucky for them," I pondered, "any action is good action these days" and I was quite shocked at this twisted response that emanated from my mouth! Witnessing their lustful expression was not quite the action I had in mind for my own satisfaction.

Further instances have transpired lately, that have caused a lot of tension and instability in the Big Brother House. Tasks are given to the housemates; challenges are created and the consequences result, ultimately, in confusion, drama and false beliefs that events are taking place, when in fact, they are mere fabrications created to toy with the Housemates' minds.

This lead me to explore the concept of reality television, particularly the Big Brother show. I have worked behind the scenes on almost all of them and for some reason, I keep going back. I was quite intrigued as to why I had never really dissected this inner-fascination for reality television before. Sure, I was aware that I enjoyed the concept of 'cutting' live television, but I had never really unpacked the hidden reason as to why I found it so intrigueing and riveting...until yesterday.

We, as crew members, are completely manipulating these people's lives. It starts with ideas from the core - the Production Dept, it then gets fine-tuned by the Content Department and ends up in the Control Room where the Technical Dept. executes these ideas - that's me. The element of surprise constantly disrupts the Housemates' routines and bombards them into changes of action. I was constantly witnessing the thought processes that evolved in each Housemate's mind, from beginning to end and I was being privy to the choices that they made as a result of these events. It struck me: I am in the business of watching how people think and act as a result of the elements of life being thrown at them sporadically and impulsively. I am watching life in the process. My own private idaho!

I have always been a keen observer of life and of people around me; sometimes choosing to dissasociate rather than to partake, but the concept of how people react and why they react to things the way they do, has always been a source of endless amusement for me. Now I get it! And now I'm getting it eight hours a day! And I still want more! Even if it's dull or uneventful, the mere priviledge of observing the way life takes shape and acts itself out, is highly stimulating for me. I concluded this thought-provoking topic with the realisation, that I think I am a voyeur! How interesting.

As I read this analogy, I am amused, once again, to see how life has found a way of manifesting itself in my mind as a result of exploring other people's minds. And so the journey continues...